This is about me, or You?

Dated: 10/06/10 - My dear Heavenly Papa asked me tonight what I needed in life. I said I needed to lead a life which brings me to eternity. But if we're talking in human terms, I need a good career, good health, good family, good husband, and I want to do more works, and to do good to others out of love and concern. Basically, I need a good life on earth just like everyone else.

My Lord seems to have a different perspective. He answered "You're wrong, dear. You need to have a still heart to know that I'm greater (and better) than all those things You've mentioned".

A life lived in total surrender to God? I'm still learning daily.

I have fears of losing too. Losing people, losing financial stability, losing too far off in terms of grades, losing hope which sometimes seems to be the only thing that's binding me together...

Is there anything in your life, or anyone in your life you simply can't lose? What if you lose them one day?

"Why,why, why me?"
"Oh well, life sucks."
"And you tell me God loves me??"
"What to do, get over it and move on."
"I won't lose, I'll do all it takes to fight and get things back."
"I wish I never had it in the first place so it wouldn't hurt so much to lose."
"Why are you even talking about this you complicated fool, just let nature take it's course."

Eventually, we will find a way to deal with what life throws at us, the appropriate response we need according to what suits us best.

As for myself, I hope to reduce the "me" factor and embrace the big "You". Maybe I should come up with a creed.

"I will live courageously in spite of what life hurls at my face, because I know You empower me. I will offer every portion of my life as a sacrifice, because this life is to be used for Your glory. Even when all else is stripped away, pain stops becoming the focus because You are always more than enough to see me through."

Even with these big and seemingly noble ideas in my head, I still doubt I'm capable of absolute tenacity. But I must start somewhere and put thoughts into action. So, with my hands lifted up and heart humbled bowed at His work on the cross, may the joy of the Lord be my strength.